High School Friends

Last night I dreamt I was in college and rooming with a friend of mine from high school.

How life actually went is that for some reason, everyone decided they didn't like this girl our senior year. She was smart, funny, attractive, and daddy had plenty of money. And I suppose that was the problem - while everyone else in our class who had money worked for other people, this girl's dad owned his own profitable business. So while being one of the rich kid's was desirable, when people realized how well her dad was doing of his own accord, I think maybe nobody knew what to do about it. And as most things get settled, the parent's didn't express their frustration and/or amazement directly to her parents. They must have expressed it to us kids. And we took care of it from there - the girls, basically abaondoning her; the boys, relentlessly toilet papering their house and otherwise making life bothersome.

The thing is - I really liked her. When we started hanging out in high school, there was an ease with each other that I had really never known before. It was so easy being friends with her, that it was just as easy to let her go. We all moved on to college, and while we tried a few times to get together, we just never maintained a close friendship.

At our class reunion a few years back, she and I and two of our other friends from high school, who had soured to each other, just naturally drifted back by each other for the night. I meant to tell her afterwards how much I enjoyed hanging out with her. But, of course, I didn't. We've never connected.

Well, last night, I feel I had a healing dream about her. I've been having a lot of these lately.

I dreamt that she and I and my other friend from high school ended up going to the same college together. We were all living in the dorms together, and had a bunch of our high school guy and girl friends come up for a party.

The party was put together well. The people ... they were a trainwreck. Guys who I thought had it all together were a complete mess, guys who seemed like losers turned out to be really fun at this party.

Though the party was big, she and I and our other friend always seemed to have each other in check as we went along. I broke away for a while, but I found my way back to them after realizing how much I was not enjoying myself hanging out with the other people.

That was it. I woke up feeling so connected, like I have these girlfriends that I don't even know about, or simply don't let myself access. Like the dream was showing me that I might be part of the reason why I feel like I don't have a strong support system right. The dream felt good - shook me up in a good way. That's all for today. Thanks for listening.